When I was a teenager, in English class, we were discussing
EM Forster’s classic novel Maurice, published in 1913, about the journey of a
young gay man to find love in repressive Edwardian society.
Then our teacher dropped (to my mind at least) a bombshell.
“You realise that the law prevents me from saying anything positive about
homosexuality,” she told us, her hands picking anxiously at the bobbles on her grey
fluffy cardigan. “I’m not allowed to tell you that it’s OK.”
When I was growing up, I hadn’t even heard of the word LGBT
– I doubt it had even been invented. I remember as a child asking my mother;
“Mummy, why can’t two ladies get married?” – to be honest, the context escapes
me – and being told “because it’s against the law.” Later on, when I became a
teenager and started to identify as the “B” in “LGBT” I started to look around
for representation in the books I was reading. And very little there was too.
OK, I was at school in North Wales and it was right at the end of the bad old
Eighties – Margaret Thatcher was on the way out, but Section 28 of the Local
Government Act (which prohibited “the promotion of homosexuality as a pretend family
relationship”) was still in.
Now as it happened, Section 28 never applied directly to
schools, only to local authorities, and many teachers such as ours were
confused about what they could or couldn’t say. But such was the media blackout
in those days, that any information seemed to be confined to the bad-news pages
of the newspapers (hey, this was pre-Internet! Dark Ages!) such as (rather
plentiful) stories of LGBT people being beaten up and murdered.
However, somewhat to my surprise, a few LGBT-themed teen
books suddenly crept into our school library. I came across them by accident –
God knows how they got in there, either a forward-thinking teacher had ordered
them (the same English teacher perhaps? We’ll never know!) or they’d just
slipped in as an oversight. Anyhow, I quickly squirreled them away, and read
them from cover to cover. My favourite was The Other Side Of The Fence (1986) by Jean
Ure, about a friendship between young runaway Bonnie and posh Richard, a gay teenager who has been thrown
out of his house by his homophobic father and their journey to find somewhere
to live together.
The second was Dance On My Grave (1982) by Aidan Chambers, about Hal’s search for “a friend”, where sex was rather euphemistically
referred to as “giving him a present from Southend.” (Yup). The title of the
third escapes me now (and even asking around on the Internet hasn’t yielded any
fruit, hit me up on Twitter though if this sounds familiar) – was about a teen
lesbian couple who had to break up because one of them was raped (the causation
between being raped and having to break up with your partner was taken as so
evident as to not warrant any explanation in the book).
So there were characters like me in books then!
Unfortunately, with life mirroring art, the situations encountered by
characters were often rather upsetting or depressing. Despite the relative doom
and gloom though, these finds were somewhat exhilarating – contraband!
forbidden fruit! – and I’ll be honest – the idea of possessing something
AGAINST THE LAW was kinda exciting. I searched around in community centres and
classified ads at the back of magazines and found a whole new hidden world, of
photocopied flyers to club nights and books of hand-drawn cartoons. I also came
across Jeanette Winterson’s Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit which again started
with a bleak picture of the journey of a working-class girl but slowly
blossomed into hope. Despite my differences, I still came from a middle-class,
arty family where tolerance was the norm, and reading about the hardships other
people in different situations had to bear was enlightening.
For this article, asking around my peers who grew up the
same time as me for other LGBT-themed books of our schooldays bore little
fruit. Many didn’t come across anything at all until their early twenties when
they discovered Tennessee Williams and Oscar Wilde. “There was none o’ that
round Dorset way!” quipped Matt, a friend from the days of our university
GaySoc (well, it was the Nineties.) “There’s no queers up north, y’ know!”
replied playwright Leon Fleming. “I didn't read any LGBT fiction growing up at
all. I don't think I ever saw any. It’s unlikely there would have been any
around in school or the local library to just accidently drop on anyway, and
with no internet then (I feel really old now) searching for such things without
giving myself away would have been impossible as well.”
Others managed a couple of
suggestions from more recent years – actor Jack Holden mentioned Hero by Perry More, a fantasy story about
a teenage superhero, and writer Paul Hewitt found a parallel in the inequality
and social discrimination referenced throughout the Harry Potter series: “Whether it be Muggle hating, disrespect of
muggle-borns, societal acceptance of half humans or the treatment of non-human
magical creatures, hopefully the generations after me that have loved those
characters and stories will learn something about equality and community, too.”

For young adults, there’s countless options – amongst which
only a few are Boys Don’t Cry by Malorie Blackman which features homophobia, Luna
by Julie Anne Peters about a girl whose sibling is a closeted trans girl,
Beautiful Music For Ugly Children about transgender teens by Kirstin Cronn-Mills
and virtually everything by David Levithan (start with Boy Meets Boy if you
haven’t already). Don't shoot me if I haven't included your favourite - you can add it in the comments section.
Forster’s dedication in the
frontispiece of Maurice, over a hundred years ago – “To a happier year” – has finally come
true. The question I asked as a child to my mother – “Why can’t two ladies get
married?” will never have to be asked – or answered – again.