Do you know what it is to succumb under an insurmountable day-mare,—"a whoreson lethargy," Falstaff calls it,—an indisposition to do anything, or to be anything,—a total deadness and distaste,—a suspension of vitality,—an indifference to locality,—a numb, soporifical, good-for-nothingness,—an ossification all over,—an oyster-like insensibility to the passing events,—a mind-stupor,—a brawny defiance to the needles of a thrusting-in conscience...
Oh Charles - we do know - we do -
This has been for many weeks my lot, and my excuse; my fingers drag heavily over this paper, and to my thinking it is three-and-twenty furlongs from here to the end of this demi-sheet. I have not a thing to say; nothing is of more importance than another; I am flatter than a denial or a pancake; emptier than Judge Parke's wig when the head is in it; duller than a country stage when the actors are off it; a cipher, an o! I acknowledge life at all, only by an occasional convulsional cough, and a permanent phlegmatic pain in the chest...
Your words touch us - tell us more of the details of your discomfort -
I am weary of the world; life is weary of me. My day is gone into twilight, and I don't think it worth the expense of candles. My wick hath a thief in it, but I can't muster courage to snuff it. I inhale suffocation; I can't distinguish veal from mutton; nothing interests me... If you told me the world will be at an end to-morrow, I should just say, "Will it?" I have not volition enough left to dot my i's, much less to comb my eyebrows; my eyes are set in my head; my brains are gone out to see a poor relation in Moorfields, and they did not say when they'd come back again; my skull is a Grub-street attic to let—not so much as a joint-stool or a crack'd jordan left in it; my hand writes, not I, from habit, as chickens run about a little, when their heads are off...
This has been for many weeks my lot, and my excuse; my fingers drag heavily over this paper, and to my thinking it is three-and-twenty furlongs from here to the end of this demi-sheet. I have not a thing to say; nothing is of more importance than another; I am flatter than a denial or a pancake; emptier than Judge Parke's wig when the head is in it; duller than a country stage when the actors are off it; a cipher, an o! I acknowledge life at all, only by an occasional convulsional cough, and a permanent phlegmatic pain in the chest...
Your words touch us - tell us more of the details of your discomfort -
I am weary of the world; life is weary of me. My day is gone into twilight, and I don't think it worth the expense of candles. My wick hath a thief in it, but I can't muster courage to snuff it. I inhale suffocation; I can't distinguish veal from mutton; nothing interests me... If you told me the world will be at an end to-morrow, I should just say, "Will it?" I have not volition enough left to dot my i's, much less to comb my eyebrows; my eyes are set in my head; my brains are gone out to see a poor relation in Moorfields, and they did not say when they'd come back again; my skull is a Grub-street attic to let—not so much as a joint-stool or a crack'd jordan left in it; my hand writes, not I, from habit, as chickens run about a little, when their heads are off...
If you are find yourself being just such a chicken, feel better soon. This too will pass, believe it or not.
P.S. Taken from a History Girls blog. As it was in 1824, 2015, 2024 and onwards.
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6 comments:
I cannot tell you how much I love this and these words. Joan! I feel like learning his laments by heart, ready to reel off whenever the slightest ache or sniffle or sense of lethargy is upon me. His words are almost an invitation for a huge self-pitying wallow. A sever case of Lamb-flu, I reckon.
Though, seriously, if you are really ill and suffering,do hope you feel better soon.
Descriptive beyond imagination but hits the spot.
"...my brains are gone out to see a poor relation in Moorfields, and they did not say when they'd come back again" 🤣 I love this. My brains are almost always out visiting poor relations and they are definitely lax in communicating when they shall return.
I hope you don't feel as ill as this, but I did enjoy reading it!
Thanks all - nothing so dramatic going on in my snot-ridden head, but I do love his prose!
Sounds more like depression than a cold, to me!
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