This is going to be a short
post. Partly because I’m super-busy with housey things, and also to illustrate
a point. And the two things are related.
My late father liked to
think of his style as minimalist. Which gave me some wry moments when I was
clearing out his house after his death ten years ago. Perhaps he admired minimalism, but he certainly
didn’t achieve it, I thought as I dragged down yet another set of fishing rods
from the loft. (He had given up fishing about 1985, and had moved house with
those rods more than once.)
| on their way to a good home |
The experience of clearing
Daddy’s house (1997 IKEA catalogue, anyone?) made me fairly ruthless about the
clutter in my own. But still, every year or so I manage to get rid of more
STUFF. Recently I’ve been feeling overwhelmed, partly by work-related things,
but also by that said STUFF. Things –
especially books – had started to pile up, not literally because I don’t like
mess, but in bookcases. I could always squeeze another one in somewhere. Did I
need all those pony books? Even Jackie on
Pony Island? Did I need three copies of Fly-By-Night?
Why not just keep the first edition with the dustwrapper? What about all those books by my friends?
Wouldn’t they be hurt and offended if I gave them away? Why did I keep all that
lit crit? My PhD was years ago. Did I just want to be the sort of person with
clever books in her house?
| STUFF (NB my own books are going nowhere!) |
Gran’s china cabinet had
been in my house since her death. I kept it because she loved it. I told myself
it wasn’t really ugly; it was sort-of-Art-Deco. And even when one of the
shelves broke and then I smashed a panel in the door with the end of the
hoover, I kept it. Even though it took up too much space. Even though the linen
I kept in it could be easily accommodated in the hot press. And then, clearing
out the room to have it painted I saw how much nicer it was without it. And
Gran did love the china cabinet, but she died in 2006, and I do not love it. It
has gone.
Along with many other things
– books, ornaments, flannelette sheets, ancient curtains, literary theory I
will never ever read. My rooms look
brighter and cleaner. I did exactly what I encourage people to do in editing
workshops: take out all the adverbs, the adjectives, the repetitions, and see
what you’re left with. And then put back what you really need. My house feels
edited. It’s not quite a haiku, and I would never want it to be – unlike Daddy
I don’t even pretend to be a minimalist – but it’s more of a novella now than a
three-volume novel. And I feel I can breathe and see more clearly.
| Still not minimalist -- yes, I do need all those ceramic greyhounds |
And if you find a book you
gave me in a charity shop, be reassured that I enjoyed it and appreciated it,
and that I passed it on after much agonising.
I did keep one extra copy of Fly-By-Night. I couldn’t read a first edition in the bath.
3 comments:
Good analogy, Sheena - and good advice!
Excellent post - and the tidying does make you feel better and clearer in the head, house or manuscript. I'm going through a slow but similar process myself, with both.
These family items are the very hardest ones to get to the stage of letting them go, for sure.
I've tried...and I keep trying...but....
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