|Autumn Roses - https://www.instagram.com/lucywriter/|
Last month I wrote from the depths of a bad depressive episode. I am very grateful for all your kind comments on that piece, and I'm glad it helped some of you. Unfortunately there is no quick fix for the black dog's grey fog. It's not something I can turn off with a switch, however much I want to. Writing a book right now is like wading through a sea of frozen treacle with lead boots on. Doing events is exhausting - because I have to put on that 'mask of normal' I talked about, and that takes its toll. But, and this is important, I survive. I am here. Every day that happens is a victory. Within that, the pleasure of small things becomes vital - as does acknowledging them.
|Vitis Cognetiae - https://www.instagram.com/lucywriter/|
Because my creative well is so dry, I have turned to another sort of creativity to try to fill the gap. I've always liked photography, so I've started keeping a virtual diary of gratitude for those small things on my Instagram page. Trying to put the joy back into the creative process is essential for me, and I'll try anything to get a tiny bit of that joy back, even for just a minute. For now, it's playing around with filters and layouts, seeing things in both colour and black-and-white. It's about really looking at objects - textures, shadows, light - and trying to convey that through the media of word and picture. As every picture book writer knows, it's the marriage of image and text which makes the whole thing light up and come alive, but in this case it's the image which is important for me. I want so very badly to move out of the monochrome world I'm living in and get back to the place where colour sings.
|Fire - https://www.instagram.com/lucywriter/|
I know this type of laid-bare honesty isn't for everyone. But for me it's a survival tool.
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