It’s late in the month to be
talking about NY Resolutions. There’s already been plenty of time for them to
be made, broken and forgotten til next year. I could apologise for bringing up
the distasteful topic on the 13th of the month, but I won’t because
one of my resolutions – many years ago – was never to apologise insincerely.
new year, new resolutions |
This year I’ve resolved to
lose weight – this time from my unwieldy monstrous work-in-progress as well as
from my unwieldy monstrous body; to practise an hour day on my (beautiful, new,
expensive – whoops, what happened to the resolve not to be extravagant?)
guitar; to keep my accounts monthly and – to keep my study tidy.
In pursuit of the latter I
spent several days having a Grand Clear Out. I had notebooks containing the
planning and in some cases the first drafts of every novel I have written – and
that means, I’m sorry to say, three more novels than have actually been
published. Many notebooks. Pretty notebooks, because they were bought from
Paperchase when I was working fulltime and therefore comparatively rich. And I
happen, like many writers, to be a stationery geek. I couldn’t possibly destroy them. They were a record of
years of hard work and hopes.
Well yes. But they were also
taking up space and gathering dust, and of no interest to anyone, not even me.
I do have a few MSs that I show at author visits, but I don’t want to hang on
to rough outlines of aborted projects. I don’t kid myself that some American
library is going to make me an offer for them. I no longer wish to see anyone else’s
rough first drafts, discovered and published after death – I used to, before I
was published, but now I always feel uncomfortable reading something that the
author didn’t intend to make public.
So the notebooks were shredded
and left out for recycling. The bin lorry has come and they are no more. I have
more space in my study, and am no longer surrounded by the ghosts of the-novels-that-never-were.
If I get run down by the recycling lorry and someone has to clear out my house
there will be fewer notebooks for them to tackle.
OK, I may have kept one or
two. But there’s always next year’s Grand Clear Out.
And on Monday I called into
Muji – their notebooks are gorgeous and just that bit cheaper as befits a
struggling fulltime writer with a resolution to be less extravagant. I may have
stocked up a little. After all, there's plenty of space now.
lovely new notebook drawer |
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